First post of 2010 - finally!

Hello my lovelies, i hope you are all well and enjoying 2010. I do apologise for not posting anything for ages. My depression is bad at the moment and am currently in the process of changing medication - a long and difficult process. So my motivation to do anything is almost none existent.
 But enough of that, i have bought a few things since my last post and will be telling you all about them very soon. I will also be doing some in depth reviews of  drug store foundations, mascaras eye shadows, lip glosses and nail varnish. I will try and swatch products, but for some reason my camera is playing up so they may be a bit blurry.
Well that's it for now as i am about to go do a video for youtube and take some pictures for my next blog post - hopefully tonight
Till then, byeeeeeeeeeeee

Feeling sorry for myself

Well i had to go to the dentist again this morning. I am petrified of the dentist and was having really bad panic attacks yesterday and this morning. I had a filling and two, yes TWO teeth extracted (extracted - thats a very threatning word) My dentist is a lovely lady who is really good with nervous people.My hubby held my my hand throughout. Unfortunately i gripped it so hard i actually broke it..........kidding! I did grip it so hard that it went numb though.The anasthetic is wearing off and it's getting painful
The dentist said i cant do housework etc for today and maybe tomorrow. How will i cope! lol. I cant have anything hot to eat or drink which is a pain as it is very cold at the moment so of course all i want is a nice cup of tea and a hot meal :-(  Oh well at least i have food, which is more than a lot of other people have, so i will stop moaning now.
I tried to do a video last night but wasn't happy with it. Then i discovered that movie maker doesnt work properly on this computer anyway, which i am really fed up about.But hopefully my computer will be sorted out soon.
Well thats about it for now, take care my lovlies

Computer Trouble

Well i am feeling a bit glum at the moment. Have had a bad week due to severe panic attacks and my depression is getting worse. Will be changing medication soon, which is a long, drawn out (and scary) process. And to top it all off, my computer has stopped working. We cant get anyone to look at it till middle of next week so for the forseeable future i will be sharing a computer with my hubby. This wouldnt be so bad if the computer wasnt like something out of the last century. It is soooo slow and half the time doesnt work properly.Also my husband has to do a lot of university work on it. So i will have limited access to it,This means i wont be able to update my blog or upload videos on youtube as often as i would like too. Well i better go now as hubby needs to do some uni stuff. Take care guys and hopefully will be back soon

Ok i know this look is a tad bright and unblended, but it was my entry for Unlimited Elizabeths Inspired by colour youtube contest. She wanted people to do a very colourful look. Now i love bright colours and glitter so i decided to incorperrate the two. I had a lot of fun doing this look, but it was about one in the morning and i was soooo tired when i did the video, so i looked & sounded half asleep

To see just how bright and super sparkly this look was just click on this link

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hv9oUju2BVc

Please support victims of bullying

Bullies. Most of us will have known a bully at some point in our life.  Maybe they bullied us,a friend or family member.Or maybe we were the bully or hung around with them. Maybe it was verbal abuse, physical, mental emotional or a combination. Maybe the bullying  didn't last long - or it went on for months even years.It could even be happening right now. It could have happened at school,work,home.
Or on the internet.
Sadly cyber bullying is on the increase at an alarming rate, especially on youtube because you can be totally annoymous.Now i just want to emphasize that i'm not talking about someone who has a different opinion to you, or the odd nasty comment like 'you are fat' etc.Thats a hater comment and all gurus (even the top ones) get them. The best thing to do is block them and dont respond. I am talking about people who will not leave you alone. They leave constant abuse on your channel,videos and even private messages.I have experienced it on youtube. It was so bad i had to report them to youtube to remove their channel - which was dedicated to hating me (i am not exagerating) and encouraged others to hate me. To say i was upset is an understatement. I cried and nearly deleated my channel there and then. But my hubby was very supportive (and angry) and i decided to make a video about it instead, I had lots of lovely encouraging comments that helped me move on.
Lately i have been getting some abusive comments (and messages) again. So i did another video about it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tp8efcqbSdQ
This time though, i was able to tell people about a new channel on youtube called beating the bully
http://www.youtube.com/user
This channel offers support to anyone being bullied. So i thought i'd blog about it too, in case anyone reading this is being bullied.
I just want to say thanks to everyone who has left encouraging comments on my channel, videos and messages in response to my video I do appreciate it and encourage you to support victims of bullying however you can.
Lecture over, my next post will be makeup related honest!

Dr Who I Love You

I know this has nothing to to with beauty but i don't care.I have just watched the latest Dr Who episode, whilst curled up on the sofa with a blanket. I looooove Dr Who and think David Tennant is the best Dr yet. I just don't think anyone will come close. He manages to express so much through his eyes, especially sadness. This particular episode was darker than normal - which i liked.It was also extremely sad. I mean heart breakingly sad, as we see him falling apart at the end of the episode. David's last appearance as the Dr will be sometime over Christmas (i think) and rumour has it that Rose,Martha, Donna, Sarah Jane & Captain Jack will be joining David on his last adventure, i hope it's true! I just wish he wasn't leaving. The thing that really sets him apart (this is just my opinion) is how he can switch from comedy to drama in a split second. Thats really hard to do. I
Well i'll leave it there for now.
Take care guys

Prizes for my youtube 1000 subscribers contest

Hey everyone i hope you are all well and having a nice weekend. My neck and face are no longer swollen yay! so feel a bit more confident doing some Youtube videos (link to channel in top right hand corner of my blog) . I have just uploaded my 1000 subscriber youtube contest  and thought i'd give you a heads up on the prizes.There will be 3 winners.

3rd PLACE


Eden Palette - 4 layers 18 eyeshadows,1 lipcolour  & 2 blushers (i think they are more like eyeshadows)

W7 Box Of Fun - 2 eyeshadows in white and a soft brown + 3 sheer mini lipglosses. - sealed

Too Faced eyeshadow duo in PoodlePuff a soft pink with aubergine

Boots 17 Metallic Eye Pencil in Green - this looks more like blue to me!

NYC liquid lipstick in Jessica (sealed)

Boots 17 pink make up bag                   

2nd PLACE
Eden palette









Smashbox Duo Eyeshadow in Smashing Blend a soft pink & a; soft grey










W7 Box Of Tricks - 15 large eyeshadows (green, brown & purples)
4 large lip colours &; 3 HUGE blushers

Boots 17, 5 Piece  Brush Set
NYC Liquid Lipstick in Jessica
NYC Liquid Lipstick in Bari
(sorry about the bad photo quality )

1st PLACE



Smashbox Eyeshadow Duo in Smashing Contour (soft cream & teal)

W7 Paint Box - 77 eyeshadows (browns,greens,blues &; greys)

Eden Palette

Jemma Kidd Palette
One cream highlighter, 2 pressed eyeshadows, 1 loose powder eyeshadow (ice blue & very shimmery) 1 lipgloss

Jemma Kidd 4 Piece Travel Brush Set
2 Rimmel London lipglosses (sorry no picture)



If you like the look of the prizes and want to enter just click on this link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=De6LigymS8s
Take care